I'm so fucking tired -_-
Today I went grocery shopping for New York because I'm planning on not spending money at all on food so I can buy presents for my family. After looking at my parents' bank account balance, they really need a treat. Right now I feel like I am the only one who can lift up their spirits (older bro doesn't care, middle bro doesn't understand, little bro is going through puberty) so I guess that some presents from New York will make them feel better.
After I saw the amount they have, I realized how much I need a job to help my family. I would honestly put my own goals aside to pay the bills for them, just to give them a little help.
This trip to New York will be more than a music competition, it'll be like a new experience (I mean, New York City+Friends-Parents=Kicks ass). I hope that by next Sunday things get better and I get a free lunch muahahaha >:)
It's really depressing seeing how mom is about to break down whenever she tries to help brother #2. She can't teach him because he can't learn. It's making me sad, really sad. My brothers will not have a future :/
Anyways, this trip will give me some alone time, which is really needed.

We're past the honeymoon stage

Wow sociology is really useful eh? I guess the turbulence started. Fasten up your seat belts!

Lo mejor es que nadie entiende.

And for a moment

i feel like writing in spanish!
Ahh la cosa de volver a la lengua materna. Te da un sentido de q perteneces en un lugar donde la vida sería cien veces mejor que en la que estás. Es muy difícil escribir en la lengua materna cuando apenas se habla, como comer con palillos chinos sin saber. En serio, me duele el corazón cada vez que me acuerdo de lo lindo que era ser niña, pero también es lindo saber que hay alguien que aunque cumpla 19 o 90 años todavía te hace sentir como si tuvieras 2.

New York is probably going to be the best four days of grade 12. Out of home, out of school, just bright lights=heaven

Right now

Right now, i really want things to get better
i want you all to realize that you're being jerks
i'm being a jerk too


but HEY GUESS WHAT i am not the only one who makes mistakes -_- make sure you all check your own flaws too okay?

So I'm watching "Ancient Discoveries" on History Channel and the episode is about old buildings that inspired New York City. It's getting me sooo excited
New York City+Ancient Rome, Greece, etc=Gabby's ultimate orgasm