I'm so fucking tired -_-
Today I went grocery shopping for New York because I'm planning on not spending money at all on food so I can buy presents for my family. After looking at my parents' bank account balance, they really need a treat. Right now I feel like I am the only one who can lift up their spirits (older bro doesn't care, middle bro doesn't understand, little bro is going through puberty) so I guess that some presents from New York will make them feel better.
After I saw the amount they have, I realized how much I need a job to help my family. I would honestly put my own goals aside to pay the bills for them, just to give them a little help.
This trip to New York will be more than a music competition, it'll be like a new experience (I mean, New York City+Friends-Parents=Kicks ass). I hope that by next Sunday things get better and I get a free lunch muahahaha >:)
It's really depressing seeing how mom is about to break down whenever she tries to help brother #2. She can't teach him because he can't learn. It's making me sad, really sad. My brothers will not have a future :/
Anyways, this trip will give me some alone time, which is really needed.