Smile like you used to when we first met. I miss that smile.

I feel like I can't pull myself together anymore. Everything will slowly start breaking down and disappearing. Life will change.

And I'm scared of that change.

I love how I can be so obnoxious about everything but when it comes to asking things that I care about I chicken out.

I don't get boys

One day they tell you to cover up and then the next day you waste your money for something to flash more skin.

really?

A nice picture with a nice label.

Nothing left to say or do.

You will do great in university

^Thanks mates. Now, if I fail in the coming 10 months your words will be wandering in my mind forever. They expect you to do well, despite falling at first. However, there is no example to follow, no relative who can be your role model other than a brother who couldn't stand his first year. Sheesh. I'm not even that smart.

In fact, looking at some of my course syllabi is already starting to freak me out. And I haven't even paid for first year. Bollocks.

So many things to do, so little time.

I think that because I'm shy and quiet around people I don't talk to very often makes it seem that I hate them. I always thought that would happen; however, I cannot find a way to avoid it. Fuck you german school classmates for bullying.

I remember you said it could only get better, but lately i haven't seen that effort. Especially from your part.

In a world where we want to give and receive, I only request this from some but not everyone. Telling you about this would be like dropping an atomic bomb. It's not getting better or worse, it's being taken away.