"Your dad and I are the only people who will always be there for you unconditionally"

yeah, sorry for causing you so much pain

Maybe the reason why I am not that enthusiastic about celebrating my birthday with my friends is because my relationship with my family is kinda falling apart.

As a matter of fact, I am not excited about anything. At all.

NEW GOAL: to save 1500 by the time I move

therefore, i must save 300 dollars from every paycheck I get

Dear Parents

Dear Mom,

In about two weeks I will turn eighteen

How years have passed!

Remember when I was five

and you forced me to wear diapers

because I had a urinary infection?

Yeah, those were and are the days...

I have a lock in my room,

but now that lock instead of giving me privacy

is locking me away from you

and I don't know how to stop it

I'm sorry I have to put you through all of this stress

and that I don't have the courage to help you

because if I did, I wouldn't be as wonderful as you are

Dear Dad

I guess the only time I let you hold me was when I was born

and when our dog died

oh fuck, I've never seen you cry so hard before

but now your tears are not visible

and we both see how our relationship deteriorates

I don't know how to stop it

If I try, then either you or I will make one stupid mistake

and go back to the starting point

I was always cold when you tucked me in bed

I guess you got that from your dad

He was never a good example for you

So how could you show us the right way

when your own parents didn't even show you yours?

Fuck life is hard

and in about two weeks we will go to the bank

I will be free from you

A part of me is excited

but the other one is shitting her pants

Dear Parents

I am about to graduate and become equal to you

You both never had the chance to go to university or college

Never even bothered thinking about them

If I could go back in time I would change some things

If I could, I guess we would still be living in Chile

We would own a dog

We would still meet up with family on weekends

Dad, maybe you could have paid more attention to your son

Mom, maybe I could have helped you with the family

I could have cried at your father's funeral

but because I didn't have the courage to show what I felt,

I never got to pay my respects to him

Dad, maybe you could have tried and change your mother

so that she remembered my birthday, instead of making me think of her

as an insensitive old lady

Soon, you will be gone

I will be gone

"It doesn't matter that much to you if we move to this house. You're not staying here forever"

You're so right mom

Things didn't go our way

but you both still fight

and seeing you struggle every day breaks my heart

The worst part is that I never had the courage to open up

and tell you what I actually felt

what I feel right now

I was always scared you were going to make fun of me, Dad

It haunted me; it still does

I really don't want you reading this

but hey, I guess a part of me is growing up too fast

whereas the other is still staying as a child

You've both done what you could with all your efforts

I wish I could buy a ticket to the past

but I guess I will just have to make it up with my own children

when they grow up, I will not be like my grandparents

Because that is what shaped you dad

and now guess what?

You do not talk to your eldest son

You are losing touch with me

You are really stressed over your two youngest sons

I will do my best

to love my children

and to make sure they don't end up in a family

that doesn't know what it feels like to be loved

good night

So if you have a minute why don't we go

talk about it somewhere only we know?

...

I'm getting older and I need something to rely on

It really hurts when people joke around saying they have ADD

They don't know what it feels like living with a person who has ADD

I wish they shut up

I woke up from a dream just to find out I was never going back to it.